Day Thirty-One FYMM Fitness

All right. I’m convinced now, I really am. I’m convinced we’re programmed to be worthless, to be losers, to basically just be told what to do. I’m trying to think of a politically correct way to say we are programmed to not think we’re not programmed, to use our brains. Our brains are literally in our way. I say this because of this, all day today, I’m dreading the 20 minutes. I had to convince myself to start back at 10 minutes. I was like I got to just get on the treadmill. If my brain was optimal to help me accomplish these things, then I would have the willpower, I’d have the motivation to get on the treadmill. But on the contrary, I have the motivation, even though I’m not doing anything, to continue to not do anything. Now, it just doesn’t make any sense. I’ve been doing this for about a month now. And we would think that by now we’ve created the habit to where it’s just second nature. Riding the bike in the morning time, I don’t want to do it, but it’s easy because I’m not going very fast. And I just convinced myself, just move your legs. All right. So for an hour, even though that’s a very long time, I’m only running for 20 minutes, I still associate running as being worse. I ran 10 minutes, well, 9 minutes and 30 seconds at five miles an hour, which is slower than usual. Because we wanted to get two miles in 20 minutes. So that means that we have to run six miles an hour in order to do it. So going into the second mile, I’m behind. Okay. I’m a mile per hour behind. Now, this is the same person who did not want to do this and started off going five miles an hour because I did not want to run. My mind was convincing me that I was all right. I don’t have to do it. You’ve been doing it for quite some time. What does it matter? Just quit, right? This is that person that got onto the treadmill and wasted 10 minutes. Well, 9 minutes and 30 seconds running five miles an hour. Well, lo and behold, I ran two miles in 20 minutes and 30 seconds. It might’ve been 15 seconds. So what happened? I’m not really sure, but something in my mind, I don’t like losing. At one point in time, my lack of motivation turned into determination not to lose, right? Because running less than two miles in 20 minutes is a loss. So did I lose it? I guess I lost, but I didn’t lose by very much. But what that did is now it has me thinking. I ran at eight because I knew there was no way I was going to be able to catch it unless I ran at eight. So for the last couple of minutes, I ran at eight. That’s three miles per hour faster than when I started. Yesterday, I tried running at eight and I couldn’t do it, I only ran it for like 45 seconds. Not today, a day that I couldn’t do it in the beginning. If you told me I was going to run eight miles per hour at the end, I would say, “Yeah, right, it’s not going to happen. I’m only going to run five miles an hour and that’s that.” All right. But again, I’m going to reiterate. My determination not to lose outweighed my laziness. So we know that we can do more than we even believe it. We just need to learn how to figure out how to tap into that energy on a consistent, daily, minute, hourly basis. Because when determination out won laziness, I was able to run faster than normal. Now, let’s look at the rest of the day. Now after, I was winded. I was,. “Phew-y.” I walked for a couple of minutes to catch my breath, and then I ran my four minute backwards. So I didn’t miss it, and I ended up being on the treadmill longer on a day I didn’t even want to go. Now, let’s look at the secondary part of the workout. It was easier.. Today was probably the easiest time I’ve had doing two-a-days, which is again crazy. The day that I was going to come up with another excuse on why I couldn’t do anything for you guys is the day that during the middle of the second little part of the workout, I was contemplating being able to add a third set. Now, to me, that’s just mind blowing how much our mind plays tricks on us. We have to break through this blockade of laziness and stubbornness and whatever-ness, letharginism-ness, whatever, right? We have to break through that because on the other side is growth. With that being said, I want to take a shower. I rode the bike. Actually I started today late. I’m not going to lie. 5:30 is usually a late day. And 2:30 is when I’m usually up. But today, I did not get out of bed until probably 7:30, well, 8:30. But I also went to bed early yesterday, at 6:00, because I was really tired yesterday. Woke up around 10:30, because someone called me, and then I didn’t go back to bed until three in the morning. So it makes sense why I didn’t go to bed or wouldn’t wake up until 8:30, 9:00. But that might be the reason why I was slow, but we never know. Again, I’m going to end with this. We have to get through our mental blockade in order to allow growth to happen.