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I can’t give up, I can’t stop, NEVER NEVER NEVER, Lie for the cause, Die for the cause, Fuck it, Who cares, about me? Nobody so I say it again, And again Fuck You Make Money

When I wrote this I had already been through a lot in my life, however, I did not know how much more was in store for me. By the time I was 22 the struggles I had been through would have broken the strongest minded person, now in my mid 30’s I’m surprised I haven’t given up. At the end of the quote, it says fuck it who cares about me. We have to look inside and understand the thinking I had when I wrote the book and this quote. The fact that nobody cares about me is probably why I’m still alive and why I haven’t given up. 

Throughout my life, I’ve been told numerous times how much people love me, but then their actions never support their claims. If what people have been giving me is love, then I don’t really want it. The same people who told me I love you, are the same people who sent me to hell, and when my hell was over, cast me out as a sheep amongst wolves.

I learned at 11 years old I was on this earth by myself and nobody was going to take care of me. The day my mom died is the day everything went to shit. I came up with the theory “fuck you make money” because I was tired of getting hurt by people and I realized that unless you’re trying to make money with me then fuck you, hence the phrase fuck you make money. There are two types of people in this world, people who are willing to crawl through the mud with you and get dirty, then the other type are the people who plot and try and destroy everything you create.

I set out to find other like-minded people that the world forgot about, the people no one cares about. If we take a minute and think about it, almost all of us are or have been forgotten. It is not just Erik and his pity it’s the whole world. We all came into a world where no one cares about anybody but themselves and I’m a prime example. I really don’t give a shit about anything but myself, that’s why I help other people so that I can help myself. When it says nobody cares about me it also should be saying I don’t care about anybody else so I say it, again and again, Fuck You Make Money

Unless you are a part of me, then I don’t care if you care about me. Where it says “I can’t give up” you’re right I can’t give up on the people that do believe in me, that believe in having something better for themselves.The people that no longer want to be a Nigger and want to achieve something in life. The people that have slept under a bridge or have been in a situation where nobody’s been there for them. Those are the people who understand my pain and the struggle I’ve been through. If you haven’t been in a situation where you don’t know what’s going to happen, or you don’t have someone telling you that it’s going to be okay then you don’t understand me. Since I was 11 years old, no one’s told me it’s going to be okay. I don’t remember anyone telling me too much of anything. I remember being sent to programs and then being disowned at age 18.

I can’t give up I can’t stop never never never lie for the cause die for the cause fuck it who cares about me nobody so I say it again and again fuck you make money. Ain’t Life a bitch I have to give my life for this shit, it’ll be worth it as long as every black man’s rich. 

The book has numerous quotes about the sacrifices I’m going to have to make and the ones I’ve already made in my life for the cause so lie for the cause die for the cause yes I will.  I have died.  little pieces of me have died over the years. I can’t sleep, I don’t know how to have a normal relationship, the amount of stress I probably have on me would kill a normal person but I don’t even look at it as stressed I don’t even know what it is.

We have to first analyze our own situations, our own blessings, and our own struggles. When it gets really hard for me, and it does, I’m not perfect as much as I try to be a machine and a robot, have no feelings, and work all day. I go as far as trying to convince myself I don’t need sleep, I don’t need food and I don’t need water to survive. God has a funny way of breaking me down (exhaustion)  but if we pay attention God does it in a way that can be motivating. A saying I grew up on is “God will never give you more than you can handle” if that is true then all of our struggles are for a greater purpose. Far too many of us blame God for hardships opposed to thanking him for preparing us for future battles.

Fuck it who cares about me it’s an attitude that I have to have majority of the time in my life in order to survive.  When I was younger I was watching the movie “Dead Presidents”. They were in the Vietnam jungle when one marine asked his best marine friend about back home and his daughter. The marine responded, “thinking about going back home will get me killed. I can’t think about it. I don’t want to be a part of it in order for me to survive. I have to live here in the jungle and think of nothing else but this.

While I’m in my jungle and my war zone of accomplishing my goals and building the society I want. I have to have the same mentality as that Marine had, I cannot be buckled down with feelings and emotions, I have to isolate myself in order for me to achieve greatness there is no other way. If I get buckled down with people worrying about me and in turn me worrying about them worrying about me, then I lose mental time & energy. The ultimate sacrifice is to sacrifice oneself, so it would be a great honor to sacrifice myself for the greater good of my people.